It's so freaking sickening.

You've treated me so badly. I'm nothing to you.

Yet, I can't seem to leave you. I don't want to leave you. I love you too much to leave you.

It's so pathetic how I let myself swoop to that level where you have complete control over me.

You take advantage of me. Knowing for a fact that I'll never leave you so you treat me like dirt.

I'm so disgustingly weak. I hate myself for loving you this much. Hate it.

This is so pathetically disgusting.

I need to save myself

and leave the person who doesn't care about me. Why is it so hard?

You'll never know what you did wrong. You'll never know how badly you're treating me.

I need to give up and get over you.

You're definitely not the one for me. You're just not. You don't understand my view point and your childish mind and beliefs will prevent you from understanding.

Don't take advantage of me because I'm 'talking' to you again. It doesn't mean I forgive you. I'll never forget the way you left me to die.

Don't you dare try to shove your words down my throat, forcing me to 'understand' your twisted point of view.

You say you care but your actions tell me you don't. You're always leaving me stranded, alone. Dumping me off like that.

Your friends might think you're a 'good' person.

But I've been more than your friend and I know who you are behind that 'friendly' 'smiling' face.

You're a cruel, heartless half human.

Heavy Heart

Weighted down by sorrows.

When I see you tomorrow

I don't actually know whether I'll see you tomorrow.
But I know what I want.
I want to forgive you.
But one must stand strong sometimes.
Because you don't deserve to be forgiven.
When I can't even look at you.
You humiliated me.

Maybe it'll be better

If you and I weren't together.

I think that's what I'm aiming at- breaking us up.

You've never let me go to sleep angry in the past, but now I think you're just sick of fighting with me. Yeah, you won't be around for long and I'm waiting for the day when you'll tell me you'll go.

Couldn't have said it better:

"The truth is: being yourself isnt really bad. But being outside yourself is better. Life understood is life lived." By: Elegy Wong


P.s. Sorry for not being on for so long guys. SCHOOLS JUST KILLING ME, but I'm on my final year. So... NO PROCRASTINATING! 


I've been procrastinating since school started, I MUST STOP!!