It's so freaking sickening.

You've treated me so badly. I'm nothing to you.

Yet, I can't seem to leave you. I don't want to leave you. I love you too much to leave you.

It's so pathetic how I let myself swoop to that level where you have complete control over me.

You take advantage of me. Knowing for a fact that I'll never leave you so you treat me like dirt.

I'm so disgustingly weak. I hate myself for loving you this much. Hate it.

This is so pathetically disgusting.

I need to save myself

and leave the person who doesn't care about me. Why is it so hard?

You'll never know what you did wrong. You'll never know how badly you're treating me.

I need to give up and get over you.

You're definitely not the one for me. You're just not. You don't understand my view point and your childish mind and beliefs will prevent you from understanding.

Don't take advantage of me because I'm 'talking' to you again. It doesn't mean I forgive you. I'll never forget the way you left me to die.

Don't you dare try to shove your words down my throat, forcing me to 'understand' your twisted point of view.

You say you care but your actions tell me you don't. You're always leaving me stranded, alone. Dumping me off like that.

Your friends might think you're a 'good' person.

But I've been more than your friend and I know who you are behind that 'friendly' 'smiling' face.

You're a cruel, heartless half human.

Heavy Heart

Weighted down by sorrows.

When I see you tomorrow

I don't actually know whether I'll see you tomorrow.
But I know what I want.
I want to forgive you.
But one must stand strong sometimes.
Because you don't deserve to be forgiven.
When I can't even look at you.
You humiliated me.

Maybe it'll be better

If you and I weren't together.

I think that's what I'm aiming at- breaking us up.

You've never let me go to sleep angry in the past, but now I think you're just sick of fighting with me. Yeah, you won't be around for long and I'm waiting for the day when you'll tell me you'll go.

Couldn't have said it better:

"The truth is: being yourself isnt really bad. But being outside yourself is better. Life understood is life lived." By: Elegy Wong


P.s. Sorry for not being on for so long guys. SCHOOLS JUST KILLING ME, but I'm on my final year. So... NO PROCRASTINATING! 


I've been procrastinating since school started, I MUST STOP!! 

You cannot buy love.

Likes and dislikes.

So it's pretty obvious that everyone likes/dislikes different things. Thing is, do we have a choice between what we like and dislike? Can we actually choose what we find appealing to us?


Yeah, I didn't think so either. 

Dear: Chao.

Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for giving me such good advice. Thank you for everything. (:

Periwinkle fur.

Hey blog, long time no see.

I hope Zeo, Rikku and Jay are ok. I just heard from Jay that Jade's plane crashed and Rikku has had a miscarriage due to grief. I feel useless cause I can't really do anything for them to make them feel better. :( So, the most I could do was just draw something for them. Black and I are going to do a drawing collab for them three.

I'll post up the finished version after Black has signed it:

Edit

JADE IS OK!! 8D

So Black and I changed the card for Jay and Rikku. :(

Please excuse the spelling mistakes in the pic above. 

Anyways, here's the new card:

I love Black's drawings!

Breathing.

I'm breathing in oxygen, but I can't see it. If I had a strong enough microscope, do you think I would?

I love the sickest, darkest parts of you...

Thank the stars

If you do science at school, you should know that everything in the universe is made from star dust. Stars sacrificed their atoms so earth can be formed, so we can have life. We should thank the stars. 

F(r)iend

It's funny how powerful spelling can be.

Leave the 'R' out in 'Friend,' and you'll be calling someone a demon. (:

Cause every night I will save your life.

Night into dreams

Don't you just love the feeling you get when you're alone outside at night?

It's as if you were the only person alive, for once you can have the world to yourself.

Fly

When you decide to take flight, please take me with you.

Are your troubles really all what they seem?

I am quite embarrassed by one of the blogs posted below. It's quite unbelievable how someone can get to your head at times, and then, suddenly, you click and you realise all the stuff you considered 'troubling' before is actually quite simple, or the person that bought you trouble isn't exactly worth it in the first place. 
I suppose my mind isn't as powerful as I thought it was, for I allowed a certain one person to trouble me for approximately two to three days, while normally, I would never let anyone get to my head. Not to that extent anyways.  How peculiar. 

I also find it rather annoying when teenagers are always 'troubled' or there is something in their 'mind' that causes them to cry, turn emo, or either, it keeps them awake at night. I would really like to ask these 'teenagers' a question:


"Are your troubles really all what they seem?" Is it all in your head? Can you at least, try to calm your mind for a second and look at the bigger picture. There are bigger challenges out there, if you're already breaking down on your matter now, how do you live? That is, assuming your matter isn't exactly big in the first place.






Hm, my blogs never seem to make any sense. It's probably due to the fact that I do not 'plan' what I am going to write, but rather, scribble anything down. Or either, I break it up and write a little bit of the same blog every day.

Girls. Rule.

We all know that in the past, women were only seen as mere "objects." We all know that once teenagers hit puberty, it is the males that become more muscular, hence, more powerful. This leads to men becoming more dominate [of course, there are other factors, but this isn't an essay question, so I will not list them.]

But have you ever thought that women were the ones nature set to be more 'dominate'? As we can see, it is a QUEEN bee that rules over her colony, it is also a QUEEN ant that rules over her colony. In many animal colonies, the females dominate... so, are humans meant to be like that as well?

This needs to be expanded, but I am not bothered.